Sorry M.C but I'm weak when it comes to that stuff, doesn't take much to get me craving it again either. It's a stressful job, I get abused wives, **** victims, homeless druggies and I try to help make them better people. Don't always succeed and thats when I want Morphine, or whatever I can get my hands on...so I end up needing the counsellor sometimes too.
Maybe that's not the place for you right now.
Give back later when you've got it to give. your girls come first. They are watching you. And i'm wishing you good stuff as hard as I can.