You know...that is the same reason why Hugh became Mr. HUGH HEFNER. True story.
Fuggedabout it though...get laid get paid repeat til ur penis falls off. Don't ever get stuck in a monogamous relationship ever again...come to think of it we should send photos of the latest girls we banged. Then do exchanges and become cousins. It would be like the 60's all over again...OLD FAN would know about this.
I hope you can find some happiness in another facet of your life, MK.
And I'm glad to read that you're not giving up hope that you can find the one.
When you're with someone who loves your bullsh!t as much as they love what you think is your good stuff, and when you feel the same, that'll be it.
Some people never get to that place, and for them I feel sorry.
Take your time; have fun without hurting anyone; be open.