You're working too hard, take some "me time" and chill the **** out! Think it's magic you're helping people in need though.
And a bit of free info for peeps, when your back is jacked up do not go for a flying omoplata in training. That messes you up big! Such an idiot.
WTF you trying that move for you dingleberry?!!!
The back is SOOOO easy to jack up on a long-term basis you know this! and you're telling ME to be laid back? lol you shouldn't be rolling BJJ if your back, of all things, is jacked.
thank BTW, it brings up a lot of personal crap for me, but others have been through it too so I help where I can