I just got back from my judo competition. 4 fights, 3 wins(two armbars,one pin), one loss(via penalty), 3rd place in the end. I didn't really give my best, unfortunately. I wasn't nervous, I was downright scared! Not of beatings or injuries, but of embarrassing myself. The opponents were lesser belts, but with more competition experience. If I had been more aggressive and composed I could have won the gold. On the other hand, I competed with no more training than 3 times a week, with no decent sparring partners, no supplementation and two hours of sleep the night before.
But, I guess I should be satisfied. I learned that competition is a whole other animal. It's chaotic, wild and not something i enjoyed. Maybe I'll do it again, but not soon.
"He who defeats himself is the mightiest warrior" - Confucius(I think)