Wow...it is amazing how badly past experiences can distort the view of an otherwise mentally healthy man in a relationship. I know exactly how much my wife loves and adores me, but because of an infidelity that she had early on in our relationship my mind gets stampeded with thoughts that can be consuming and ridiculous. Yet, I cannot convince myself that they are untrue.
There have been recent developments that could be explained as suspicious, but when the reasoning is laid out it makes sense. This is the most powerful emotion to me because it has the ability to override what I thought was the most powerful feeling I could experience and that is the love for my wife.
Everything is okay with us in case you were wondering and read this, but I fear that I will push her away if I am not able to control this emotion.
Anyways...what I am trying to say is **** you jealousy...**** you.