Controlling and channelling fury
Guise, I debated putting this in the stand-up subforum of fighting techniques but it's more an emotional issue than a fighting issue, and i knew I'd get answers faster here. Last Thursday in point sparring, my teacher's son who is a fairly good fighter and knows it, showboats a little, whatever. I have been hit hard many times in there regardless of what anyone drinking the haterade wants to say about TKD or point sparring. Every time I'm able to shake it off, even the times my teacher was holding my head and asking how many fingers he was holding up. Never mind that you're not supposed to drill ppl in point, if someone lacks control (which a purple belt SHOULD have, the rank this kid is) I try to roll with it and move them around, try to tire them out.
So he's dancing around with his hands down, I'm trying to move him around and charge him all at once which was probably dumb, and he headkicks me so hard I thought I was going to go down. I think it was the adrenaline from being pissed off that stopped that from happening.
In TKD sparring or thai boxing sparring which we also do, that would be OK, but it isn't for point. I deserved to get rocked for not going in with my hands further up but I was so sick of his arrogant "I'm so much better than anyone in the school I'm going to toy with all of then" I threw all my gear off and walked out.
My teacher runs after me, when I said "I gotta pee" around my mouthguard he thought I said "I broke a tooth" which was funny, then he tells me that I have many skills that most people have to work on for way longer than me to get to my level of proficiency, blar blar,and I go "yeah right don't sugarcoat it" and he says "I'm not blowing smoke up your ass" he NEVER says ass anywhere near the dojang, so whatever, maybe he was being honest. I still had to do 30 pushups and I'd love to know if his son had to do them too. he's constantly being told off for lacking control.
Now i want to smash this kid so bad I'm ready to shadowbox around my house, double up my lifting, run half again what I do, whatever I have to. I have caught him several times before b/c I'm smaller and faster. I'm worried that my anger is going to get the best of me again though.
Thanks for reading this wall of text which I tried to break up, and if anyone puts tl/dr I'll cry like a b!tch and I really don't want to smear my eyeliner so fking don't.
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